it started of so good, how did it end up like this, i hate it i hate this

iv been cast to the side second best nothing less,
i didnt ask to do this be like this,
i didnt ask to be like me,
but people you all made me,
and i hate it,

everytime i talk i annoy i dont want to i just do,
i say the wrong things or take things the wrong way,
there are reasons but there all shit i still said it or wrote it or did it,
so what i can i say but,
i hate it,

you all think its easy to to be me,
if u were just like me you would see,
the problems the conundrums that i face everyday,
if i was to stop talkin would you leave or would u miss me,
i think the first one is more right than wrong,
so once you ditch me ill no who my real friends are,
god i hate this,

im second best to the first test,
i didnt see that no i didnt but number one did and i missed out,
nothin i can do cause i am me,
i seem to turn left when every one turns right,
i hate this,